Not feeling liked makes me feel awkward. Also, what can I start? I have no experience, so I can't run for anything and not be crushed.
Why does everyone think that you need to be elected to do something? It's the opposite that is true.
You could: Start an AIDS program, write for UGLY (used to be RAIN), work in the graphix board, join RHUST, go on a recruiting binge, try to build up some administrative infrastructure (I swear, we need a system to keep the member list updated so badly, and Vector won't stop complaining about how modships are handed out without regard to the constitution, and the constitution itself always needs a rewrite), become a diplomat, work on making better standardized resource guides, help alliance members with random trades improve their trades (this would be so helpful), write up a guide to any part of cybernations, work on making our wiki insane again (we kinda gave up since it took so much effort and we had so much more to do), or just make something up yourself.
Because honestly, I suck at most aspects of the game. I rely on direction. That's why I'd never run for anything other than Internal Affairs. Can't work on graphix, I have no idea how. I've tried being a diplomat, but other alliance's websites seem to reject me. All three I've tried. RHUST, I've explained. Admin infra, I don't really get. My big issue, anyway, is not really feeling like I fit in. I never did on RI back on GFAQS either. In fact, it was far worse there. It's why I've all but left.