Rant ahead. If you don't care (I'd guess half of you.), or don't want to read, move on to another topic. Keep responses serious, because I don't feel too good. Thanks.
I can't precisely nail whats wrong. I guess a lot. A very nasty smoothie of angriness, loneliness, boredom, sadness, etc. I have hardly anything to do with my family, since all my mom does most of the time is work on the computer. Thats her job. @_@ So thats like all day there. Both my sisters stay on the computer quite a lot, and I go on it just because I have nothing to do. But honestly, I hate the blasted thing. It like controls the family. All I'd love to do is play guitar with my dad, or just talk with my family. But, no.
Not many friends. My beliefs on the term friends: Good people who boost you up, aren't afraid to talk personnel, and are nice people. Don't have many of them. I have people I talk to, and know, and I get out. Just no one I could call up on a Saturday to talk to. =/ No one.
I've been talking about a girl I like for a while. Reading her is like reading brail with your teeth. One second she wants to talk, the next if you sit next to her, she will get up and burritos. And then next week she'll probably be fine with talking to me. <_> And that leads to: Everyone doesn't get me. I don't know why people think I'm nasty, or stupid, or whatever they think. Five years ago, /five years/, I used to watch and talk about cheesy movies. I am still mocked for that today. xd I'm like, "You never even bothered to ask me what I like...". And really, everyone doesn't give me a chance. No one tries to talk to me, when I would eagerly talk to anyone.
And I want to grow to be a better christian, but no one I'm friends with really is. Not saying you guys, or people who don't believe. But the "Christian" friends I know are all ignorant, mean, rude, and very angry. This is in real life. Again, I have not one person I could talk to in real life. Not one.
=/ Since I have no one I know IRL to talk to, my comrades here can, I hope. Thanks for reading guys.