You got it all wrong, Kaiser. My mom believes that a family doesn't like us/Talks behind our backs, etc. Things like that. Even if they do, they can't stop the time. They should make no difference in me going to worship God or not. I know, I agree Ace. Maybe I'll tell them that again if it comes up again.
Yeah. I'm fine around people older then me. But going to a church meeting with primarily adults, like 40+? When they talk about business, and money, and what should and should not be done? Thats a bit over my barrier, I wish my parents were there. =/
Another completely unrelated problem, which is more of a steam on my end then anything else is, I don't think they like me that much. I've made a lot of mistakes in the past, but they don't seem to know I've changed. They don't talk about my walk with Jesus, they don't address the problems/gains I have. I feel pretty lonely in my family. They don't know the music I like, or the people I like. And they've never asked. I want them to know I'm not a bad person, but I fear they won't listen. I don't speak my mind at church, because I fear my sister would think poorly of me. I just don't think any of them know who I am, and they haven't asked. They haven't asked anything. "Glenn, what do you want to do with your life? What do you want to be? What are your goals?" None of those have been asked.
Which is really the main reason for me being sad lately. u_u I'm going to be honest, I'm a bit lonely. I'm not like "Holy crap no one loves me, I'm gonna run off a bridge." But, I could use some friends. I know God says he will provide, and that I have to trust in him, but after the past year or so, a lot happened, and I'm a bit sad. No one seems to like me all that much. I go to youth group, listen to the lesson, talk to my usual friend, and then wander around, then leave. I have no one to call on a Saturday, no one to go hang out with at the park--Nothing like that. When will God provide someone? When will I be set free? I seem to never be able to be myself, maybe thats why. I don't know. -Sigh-